first remember not being very physical
front of the hiking group when I was little
frustration I wasn’t able to compare myself to others
road of self comparison
learn to distinguish where I was and where I thought I should be.
noticed what it was like to not push forward and trail-blaze my own best.
defiled my experience by pushing so hard
ruined expectations and lead to skepticism and disappointment
so i ran to experience running
just to run.
I couldn’t do it on my own, needed medication to help my mind stay calm
built a mind that was volital and had a poor self image.
I calmed down and was firm with others that I needed help.
I feel such peach now. To be able to be at peace with my own effort. to enjoy
my life craft is the greatest feeling in the world. Lasting.
I want to help others be selfless. To be selfless to them selves.
run as little as possible while being as open to my experience
thought had to power through